Christmas and Birthday all rolled in one.

Hello !

Merry christmas to everyone ... I had wonderful time on christmas morning with the in- law.. GOt some nice presents.. We'll be hearing wedding bells anytime soon because My brother in law , Nick got engaged to his long- time girlfriend . They're yonng but been together for 2 years. So.. I don't know when ... Im happy for them ...

In 3 more days... I turn 36 years old .. Lordy ... Lordy .. I never thought that it will hit me like bricks.. I keep looking at the calendar and say " what the h..... " Lol.. I know chris and Alejandra is planning some sort of party for me on Jan 1st for some reasons ... Chris is working on my birthday which is a BIG sucker. The last 6 years has been awful because on my birhtday , he's at work every year. So I spend my birthday alone. WIth the girls or without the girls. At least I'm used to it but Im not supposed to feel that way . I don't know whether to laugh , be mad, or kill someone . It's all emotional in ONE I don't know what to say about that. So I'm in the middle of that year being closer to 40 . 2 daughters are already in teenager phase and I'm nearly this point of going crazy .. LOL.

Happy New year to everyone. I know I looked back to what have been a roller coaster for me on my journey of 2008 . I survived Breast cancer scare, I had pancearsis attack and ended up in the hosptial last year , had to learn that Im losing my vision to Coroneal disease .. Marriage tanked ... .. all negs and the postive was that I get to spend the summer in VA with my best friend, Mia . for whole one Whoopin' month . I loved it every moment. that was my highlight of 2008 . I think pretty much was a roller coaster for me. I hope to have a clean slate this year with 2009 upcoming. I want peace, harmony and happiness. I fell out of love and I don't believe in love anymore. What 's love to ? You tell me .. It'll have to be a miracle for someone to show me that there is actually a LOVE out there. I lost it . I know that I love my daughters very much , don't get me wrong .. Loving them is one thing , but loving someone ELSE is entire different story. I just hope that I can believe in that again .. someday .. somewhere... somehow....

It just have to take me a while to realize .. Don't get me wrong... I'm blessed , yes... but not that BLESSED yet.

~Angel~

Winter around christmas

Wow, who knew it is already December and just few days away , it's going to be christmas and New year 's ...

My birthday is actually a week after christmas and I want to give a shout out to the christmas birthday girl .. "A" Happy birthday , sweetie pie . We had ice storm last friday but the days before it built up to Ice storm that last friday for 2 days , It was so bad that the State of Masschuttess declared "state of emergnecy " and other regionals too. SO now We're bracing for SNOW storm that will be all day tomorrow , Perfect timing in for christmas . I plan on taking some pictures of it and around the city , If Chris will allow me to join with me to go hunting the best spots .

Sigh, What can I say about my birthday on Dec 31st? I'll be 36 years old by then , and Looking back into 2008 , I moved back home to North adams, From the city of Springfield into the town of North adams which is smack dab in the middle of mountains. So such small town but so lonely. I have so much many memories of coming here visiting my grandparents while growing up . Being an Army Brat give me idea of traveling all over the places . I love seeing different places and the history behind of it. Yes, We do have a town called "florida" in Masschuttess which is about 10 mintues outside of the town .

My grandparents, Bless their heart has gone on .. Grandpa George being gone for nearly 11 years , This Jan 1st ( yes, the day after my birthday) will be his 11 years of passing . My grandmother, Vivian who will be gone on for 8 years now . They were so much like teenagers in love. Married for nearly 63 years , would have celebrated 64th . This is my father's parents on his side. So christmas come around, I 'll be visiting them .

I hope all of your christmas and the new year bring you happiness, love, harmony , peace, and may your new year be a beautiful Journey of 2009 .

~Angel~

December 1st and It's time of that year

It's time of that year.. and..........

You 've been Elfed!

Merry christmas and Happy Holidays as we ring into the next mark of 2008 and saying good bye to all those year that we have come a long way .
I just striked with December blues.. Which mean I"ve been crying alot today . Something that triggered me to unleash the emotion floodgate . I wasn't prepared for that . It shocked me and of course , I had to laugh.

I picked up my new glasses today so I can see little better . I 've been blizt with illness in the last 3 months now and this just added to my health . it 's driving me NUTS of course. It's christmas and my birthday all rolled in one . I also have some people to say happy birthday to .. to the Bluegal 's family and Mountaingirl . Happy holidays , gals.

Being with friends , loved ones... is a special time . I go crazy shopping but in the last few years I wasn't able to .. money tightened .. maybe this year , We'll see about it . I hope that Decemeber will bring me harmony that I need to balance out . I can't wait to make my own EGG NOG that I love to drink during the holidays and I am dying for Meat mince pie. I grew up eating that during holidays .. that was my fondest memory., It's alos the annivessary of my grandfahter's passing the day after my birthday . I think that 's what triggered my emotions . i miss him so much dearly. You would love to meet him . all of kind of people that walked and met him mention his name . Lord, I know he's alright up there , but I also know he's watfhcing me as always. It's almost 11 years to that day he went home . May you laugh again ,Grandpa George.

Wow... Happy Holidays , PEEPS !
~Angel~