2009

Hello, Happy new year 2009....

Wow, it's exciting to start on a new year... with the snowstorms that'is raging on from Dec...I recently went to sears to have pictures taken by my girlfriend, Alejandra and christopher . It was a nice late birthday gift to share with . Even though I wish My babies could join me. I don't plan on cutting my hair any day.. It look nice on me even though I look so YOUNG .. that's advantage on my side .

I'm giving a shout out to my girl back home in VA who is recaupting from her scare at her stay in the hosp. I'm really hoping this byear will be good to her. I plan on coming down to see her for anothe round in summertime plus a old classmate of mine is expecting with her second one. Due this summer so this is a perfect timing for me to fly out and meet the new additaonal to the family . Alot of changes.. Someone's moving out of FLA and into GA in the upcoming months.. I'll meet her up there when she settles down plus she's real close to our former classmate from elemenatary .

I'll be in town in VA for May 23rd class reunion plus that summer. WOW .. alot of planning and getting ahead of me. It's time for me to use this opp to travel around the world. well, not necessary outside of states, (although it would be NICE!) I wanted to travel out in West.. so dying for that . My health is still the same as for now.. Im fighting with my eye dr at this point to get an interpter for myself so I can be independ but strangely enough they will not provide me one . It is ada law for them to get me a interpter even though I can read lips , I just don't want to miss out alot of important stuff . I was diagionsed with corneal disease this past year and am struggling with the blurrness ever since. Im now d'goned with Veritgo few weeks ago after passing out for 20 mintues . So I wonder what's next/ I'm only 36 years old and it 's already wrecking havoc for me.

This year is alot of movies coming out . I'm a movie bluff . I'll list new movies that are upcoming this year. So Self-awarness to your own health , just don't ignore them . Seek questions to yo9ur answers. I don't have that .

I hope to find love this year. after being struggling with my own marriage this past year and trying to communicating .. It's seem not to be working .. I 've tried every avail to ends . I'm scared to let him go but I eventually have to . Just planning ahead of time and finding on my own and realizing wo I am . This year is going to be a HUGE ride for me and I look forward to that.


Have a great year, my friends !

~Angel~

Christmas and Birthday all rolled in one.

Hello !

Merry christmas to everyone ... I had wonderful time on christmas morning with the in- law.. GOt some nice presents.. We'll be hearing wedding bells anytime soon because My brother in law , Nick got engaged to his long- time girlfriend . They're yonng but been together for 2 years. So.. I don't know when ... Im happy for them ...

In 3 more days... I turn 36 years old .. Lordy ... Lordy .. I never thought that it will hit me like bricks.. I keep looking at the calendar and say " what the h..... " Lol.. I know chris and Alejandra is planning some sort of party for me on Jan 1st for some reasons ... Chris is working on my birthday which is a BIG sucker. The last 6 years has been awful because on my birhtday , he's at work every year. So I spend my birthday alone. WIth the girls or without the girls. At least I'm used to it but Im not supposed to feel that way . I don't know whether to laugh , be mad, or kill someone . It's all emotional in ONE I don't know what to say about that. So I'm in the middle of that year being closer to 40 . 2 daughters are already in teenager phase and I'm nearly this point of going crazy .. LOL.

Happy New year to everyone. I know I looked back to what have been a roller coaster for me on my journey of 2008 . I survived Breast cancer scare, I had pancearsis attack and ended up in the hosptial last year , had to learn that Im losing my vision to Coroneal disease .. Marriage tanked ... .. all negs and the postive was that I get to spend the summer in VA with my best friend, Mia . for whole one Whoopin' month . I loved it every moment. that was my highlight of 2008 . I think pretty much was a roller coaster for me. I hope to have a clean slate this year with 2009 upcoming. I want peace, harmony and happiness. I fell out of love and I don't believe in love anymore. What 's love to ? You tell me .. It'll have to be a miracle for someone to show me that there is actually a LOVE out there. I lost it . I know that I love my daughters very much , don't get me wrong .. Loving them is one thing , but loving someone ELSE is entire different story. I just hope that I can believe in that again .. someday .. somewhere... somehow....

It just have to take me a while to realize .. Don't get me wrong... I'm blessed , yes... but not that BLESSED yet.

~Angel~

Winter around christmas

Wow, who knew it is already December and just few days away , it's going to be christmas and New year 's ...

My birthday is actually a week after christmas and I want to give a shout out to the christmas birthday girl .. "A" Happy birthday , sweetie pie . We had ice storm last friday but the days before it built up to Ice storm that last friday for 2 days , It was so bad that the State of Masschuttess declared "state of emergnecy " and other regionals too. SO now We're bracing for SNOW storm that will be all day tomorrow , Perfect timing in for christmas . I plan on taking some pictures of it and around the city , If Chris will allow me to join with me to go hunting the best spots .

Sigh, What can I say about my birthday on Dec 31st? I'll be 36 years old by then , and Looking back into 2008 , I moved back home to North adams, From the city of Springfield into the town of North adams which is smack dab in the middle of mountains. So such small town but so lonely. I have so much many memories of coming here visiting my grandparents while growing up . Being an Army Brat give me idea of traveling all over the places . I love seeing different places and the history behind of it. Yes, We do have a town called "florida" in Masschuttess which is about 10 mintues outside of the town .

My grandparents, Bless their heart has gone on .. Grandpa George being gone for nearly 11 years , This Jan 1st ( yes, the day after my birthday) will be his 11 years of passing . My grandmother, Vivian who will be gone on for 8 years now . They were so much like teenagers in love. Married for nearly 63 years , would have celebrated 64th . This is my father's parents on his side. So christmas come around, I 'll be visiting them .

I hope all of your christmas and the new year bring you happiness, love, harmony , peace, and may your new year be a beautiful Journey of 2009 .

~Angel~

December 1st and It's time of that year

It's time of that year.. and..........

You 've been Elfed!

Merry christmas and Happy Holidays as we ring into the next mark of 2008 and saying good bye to all those year that we have come a long way .
I just striked with December blues.. Which mean I"ve been crying alot today . Something that triggered me to unleash the emotion floodgate . I wasn't prepared for that . It shocked me and of course , I had to laugh.

I picked up my new glasses today so I can see little better . I 've been blizt with illness in the last 3 months now and this just added to my health . it 's driving me NUTS of course. It's christmas and my birthday all rolled in one . I also have some people to say happy birthday to .. to the Bluegal 's family and Mountaingirl . Happy holidays , gals.

Being with friends , loved ones... is a special time . I go crazy shopping but in the last few years I wasn't able to .. money tightened .. maybe this year , We'll see about it . I hope that Decemeber will bring me harmony that I need to balance out . I can't wait to make my own EGG NOG that I love to drink during the holidays and I am dying for Meat mince pie. I grew up eating that during holidays .. that was my fondest memory., It's alos the annivessary of my grandfahter's passing the day after my birthday . I think that 's what triggered my emotions . i miss him so much dearly. You would love to meet him . all of kind of people that walked and met him mention his name . Lord, I know he's alright up there , but I also know he's watfhcing me as always. It's almost 11 years to that day he went home . May you laugh again ,Grandpa George.

Wow... Happy Holidays , PEEPS !
~Angel~

Walking into Storm

"Walking into Storm"

Walking into storm
Just you and me
Versus the world

Blind by hath's fury
Stone by stone
Who's in control?
Nobody
Just me
and the blind's love.

I'm walking into your arms
Knowing that I'm taken by you
No one else
Just you and your will bound.
Love took over .
Walking into storm

Blind by hath's fury
Torn into two
Just one heart and two soul
Should intertwine...
But
Storm's taking us apart


Only your love will survive us both.
Walking into storm
Blind'by hath's fury

Just you and me
Versus the world.

Walking into storm
Willed not to be aparted.


~Angel~

"Twilight " book .. I wrote this poem based on the book.

Diary 1

Diary #1

Dear Diary,

Today's a gloomy weather, A long, ominous day started off with a weird weather this past week . It went by without any hitches ... BUT sadly, I had my "time of thing" monthly this past week and I think that is why it affected my mood. It's just a day of errands today and my eyes aren't that good today either. I just found out that I have corenal Dystrophy .. a disease that is inherited. It's in my eyes. I don't know if that 'll change everything because I need to have everything BIGGER for me to read and I hate it. I love seeing things without having to ask someone what that is or for me to get too closer. Thats the part I hate. BUT I 'll eventually learn to live with it as I live with my own Depression , PSTD and another among things that my world hasn't stopped popping up one after other.

Granted, my life doesn't get bored, it's always exciting because I don't know what's going to happen next.. I feel like Im riding on a harley and go no where beyond that or riding on a roller coaster that's going up and down. There's no surprises in the store for me. This is ME as what is happening daily . It's a struggle to get out of bed every day but I manage to do so . I never amaze to cease myself everyday. It's a miracle that I wake up each morning seeing . It's scary if i woke up one morning to be completeld halt , not able to see anymore. Oh well.. This is just the way life handed me .

I do not hate myself, nor hate life what's in front of me. As long as Im standing, I'll be alright.


~Angel~

Muh 6 years anniversray plus Deaf Club pics

Chris's drink : Strawberry -Lemondade which was sooo good

Pina Colda , my fave drink (non alochic)

TGFI in Worchester MA @ the mall .. Love the motto

Here I am hamming up @TGIF in Worchester, MA on our anniversary

Christopher @ TGIF in Worchester on our 6 years wedding aniiverdary

This is my honey , Christopher of 6 years

Here I am @ Whitney Farm just right b4 halloween ..

This is @ Chesire called Whitney Farm

I had so much fun over the weekend ... My husband took me out on sunday to a Inn in Sturbridge, Ma which I will post the pics .. And with my girlfriend last saturday to Holyoke, Mass for thanksgiving dinner plus A trip to Worchester, MA . I hope you ' all had a great weekend.

~Angel~

This is me and Alejandra getting ready 2 go to Deaf club

Me and Alejandra @ Her apartment getting ready