Diary 1

Diary #1

Dear Diary,

Today's a gloomy weather, A long, ominous day started off with a weird weather this past week . It went by without any hitches ... BUT sadly, I had my "time of thing" monthly this past week and I think that is why it affected my mood. It's just a day of errands today and my eyes aren't that good today either. I just found out that I have corenal Dystrophy .. a disease that is inherited. It's in my eyes. I don't know if that 'll change everything because I need to have everything BIGGER for me to read and I hate it. I love seeing things without having to ask someone what that is or for me to get too closer. Thats the part I hate. BUT I 'll eventually learn to live with it as I live with my own Depression , PSTD and another among things that my world hasn't stopped popping up one after other.

Granted, my life doesn't get bored, it's always exciting because I don't know what's going to happen next.. I feel like Im riding on a harley and go no where beyond that or riding on a roller coaster that's going up and down. There's no surprises in the store for me. This is ME as what is happening daily . It's a struggle to get out of bed every day but I manage to do so . I never amaze to cease myself everyday. It's a miracle that I wake up each morning seeing . It's scary if i woke up one morning to be completeld halt , not able to see anymore. Oh well.. This is just the way life handed me .

I do not hate myself, nor hate life what's in front of me. As long as Im standing, I'll be alright.


~Angel~